*sip* *breathe* *sip* *sigh*

Helloooo Reader!

There's no doubt about it.  I've been living the good life since I've been home.  I am currently watching Rachael Ray's talk show while sipping some of my favorite tea (Good Earth Sweet and Spicy) which I've been chugging all week.  You know?  I don't mind her but I much prefer Ellen.  I mean honestly Rachael, who really has a truffle shaver? I've also been sleeping WAY more than usual and enjoying every single minute of it.  Yep, life it good.  Oh, and I just threw on my favorite sweatshirt and a Rent playlist.  Seasons of Love just gets me every time now that we're approaching the end of the school year.  Can you tell I'm a little bit hyper?

Ever have one of those days where you sleep in super late, feel pretty good when you get up, and want to tackle anything and everything.  No literally.  Like if you saw someone you'd tackle them?  Yep.  I'm there.  I'm sitting and staring at four classes worth of homework but I'm dead set on getting at least two subjects out of the way tonight so I can take my Sunday night back on campus nice and easy.  I need a movie night or something... but I probably also need to clean my dorm.  Hmm...

I'm beginning to think that the ever elusive idea of contentment is not and never will be a grand state of being that overshadows everything else, but rather a series of short moments present in situations like this.  The trick might be to find a ton of little moments of contentment then in order to equal up to that grand state of being.  Let me stress that this isn't new.  This isn't some ground-breaking idea, but I'm only human and sometimes I forget to let happiness find me instead of me out looking for it.

So what am I going to do with this little moment of contentment?  Well I'm going to watch a little bit of C-Span, listen to my Rent, play some solitaire, and overall enjoy the moment.  Then I'll tackle some Sociology and Psychology.  And then I'll get a work out in tonight before I probably stay up way too late, working on something literary before going to bed at 2 or 3 am to do it all over again in the morning.  It's not an elaborate or exciting life at the moment, but it's still good, and I'm enjoying it.  Epic.

I hope your day is filled with sunshine, hugs, and smiles.  Not necessarily in that order.

-Megan

Relaaaaax

Hello Reader!

I got back home last night around 8, riding in style with a very dear friend of mine who was driving a 2011 Malibu.  Talk about luxury!

I'm so glad to be on break, it was definitely needed even though I wasn't under a lot of stress or deadlines towards the end.  Still, simply being in such close proximity to so many people causes stress.  I feel like I can breathe a little bit now.

I was just excited to spend a night in my nice warm bed, but things got a little hairy.  I was restless all night and pretty much thrashed for a few hours before finally getting up, grabbing a container of frosting, and heading downstairs to fall asleep on the couch.  I was definitely stuck in my head and so desperate to get the night over with that I turned on Jersey Shore in an effort to numb my brain.  Jersey Shore for Pete's sake!  Hey, if I have one good thing to say about that show, it makes me feel better about myself.  I knew I would feel better in the morning, but I just had to get there.

I finally fell asleep, woke up, went shopping with my mom, and am now sitting on my bed listening to music and drinking some cranberry apple tea.  I can feel myself getting progressively more stressed simply by being home, which is unfortunate since I'm really quite glad to be here.  It's just full of different stressors to which I haven't be exposed or really needed to adapt to.

It's a bummer, but the good thing is that it will get better eventually.  I think there's this weird paradox in human thought where we think negative things will last forever and positive things are fleeting.  I remember times of feeling so good and then having the thought of "This isn't going to last." How unfortunate to think that I never remember having that thought when things hit the fan.  The truth is that things do and will get better, even because of simple little things like the sunrise, and how wonderfully comforting to know that the sun WILL rise.

So I'm going to continue trying to relax and be calm, and maybe I'll watch a movie that will make me cry (since I feel ridiculously emotional now for no reason whatsoever) and later tonight I'll probably work on penning some things.

Oh but I'm listening to a Ryan Farish playlist at the moment.  He's absolutely wonderful and you must check him out.  His music makes me feel better about humanity.  Have a great evening, and smile!

-Megan